Time waits for no man..... So do what ever it is that makes you happy and content at least once a day. Everybody needs some "me" time I reckon.
After a life time of what I thought was crap and bad decisions, I came to realise that we all walk a different path. Not all of us are born under a rainbow and some of us have to do things a bit harder than others. But, as my dear old grandfather used to say, "a lesson learnt is time well spent".
So rather that questioning why and what am I here for, I just get on with it and know that good times will come. Some of the speed humps look impossible to climb and at other times, the speed humps are a good excuse to launch a big jump off of on my B50......
Tough times never last, tough people do!