OK, I seem to be suffering from some serious lack of motivation although not from VMX. Having a seriously ill family member has definately impacted on my psyche. I no longer want to do the mundane, boring everyday things that we need to do, and actual work (the work that pays the bills) has become a real bugbear chore for me, (other than the VMX work). I find myself asking the question why an awful lot, and I certainly can no longer suffer fools.I've become selfish in a non selfish sort of way if that makes any sense. I only want to do fun things and live life as fast and full as I possibly can. I'm up at 6.00am and not in bed till after 12.00pm most days. The "rules" at our house have become very lax (there are too many "rules" in life). I've placed myself on a tough fitness regime, (lost 15kg, maybe gone too far), and have been looking at getting back to the things of my youth, SCUBA etc. VMX is a part of that and I'm looking forward to a fun season ahead without any politics or BS. Part of this has seen me decide to sell of a few of the collectable bikes and concentrate on the one's I want to ride and those I just like. Building trick bikes for clients is probably the only work I enjoy at the moment. If I could I'd abandon the ratrace, but alas like most I'm a prisoner. The old bikes and VMX fun is my respite. Long live VMX.
Cheers,
K